I overwhelm myself.
I create anxiety in my heart.
I know I do it.
Sometimes I can't stop it.
Sometimes I make it worse by putting things off
or wasting time
or making excuses.
And it is almost always internal.
Sometimes, it's so subconscious that I don't know it's happening until I get hit with a migraine.
Sometimes I feel guilty about it because...
I know things.
Truths.
So, I "shouldn't" be overwhelmed or anxious.
At least that's what I think sometimes.
Which, only makes it worse.
Guilt can be good.
Guilt can be bad.
Today in Relief Society our lesson was on
It's a great talk.
It was a great lesson.
It made me think that even when I am trying to live a Christ-Centered Life,
sometimes it's hard to feel the Joy.
There are so many distractions.
The worst one is Satan, himself.
His icky whispers.
He says...
you're not good enough
you messed up, why try
you've done enough, now relax
why you? so many others could do a WAY better job
it won't matter
it doesn't matter
And so on.
He's a jerk.
The biggest jerk there ever was and ever will be.
He's real.
He's a real JERK!
I KNOW this, but I have to constantly remind myself...
if we are doing our best to live the Gospel of Jesus Christ,
we CAN have Joy.
Sometime,
we just need to pause
look
listen
search
ponder
pray
give thanks
and then
do it all
again
and again
and again.
But when you're doing all that and more, remember to
pause
look for the joy
and
listen.
I also KNOW that was we strive to put Christ first in our lives...the center of our life,
everything else becomes easier to bare and we can find Joy even in hard or challenging times.
