It feels good to take an inventory and put myself in check.
It has been kind of fun to blame my mood on outside factors, especially the weather/cold winter but it really, profoundly, boils down to the purpose of life.
Well, what I think is the purpose of life.
To see what we will choose.
"And we will prove them herewith, to see if they will do all things whatsoever the Lord their God shall command them;"
This scripture, brought to us by modern day revelation, says that the earth was created for us, to prove ourselves and to show what we choose.
2 Nephi 2:27
"Wherefore, men are free according to the flesh; and all things are given them which are expedient unto man. And they are free to choose liberty and eternal life, through the great Mediator of all men, or to choose captivity and death, according to the captivity and power of the devil; for he seeketh that all men might be miserable like unto himself."
Hmmm....which to choose? Liberty and eternal life OR captivity and death?
What really resonates with me, right now, is the last line,
"for he [the devil] seeketh that all men might be miserable like unto himself."
NOT JUST IN ETERNITY, BUT NOW!!!
He never tires of seeking misery for all man.
But, we can choose happiness.
And despite all circumstances that may bring us turmoil we can have peace through the atoning sacrifice of Jesus Christ.
I know this because I played "that" game today. The game where you have a question and you don't know how to get a clear answer so you open your scriptures and flip the pages or just let your scripture fall open where they may.
And you read.
And you get an answer.
Alma 7 was my answer today. The whole entire chapter spoke to me but particularly verses 11, 12, 15, 16, and 17.
"..he will take upon him their infirmities, that his bowels may be filled with mercy, according to the flesh, that he may know according to the flesh how to succor his people according to the their infirmities."
HE SUCCORS HIS PEOPLE.
I KNOW HE LIFTS OUR BURDENS.
Verses 19, 23, and 27 were very comforting as well.
"what is next?" after graduate school? (work of course!)
how will we get from point A to point B? (same way we got here!)
and where/what is point B? (somewhere exciting!)
I found that there is also a lot of FAITH.