Sick Sick Sick

Here are the gruesome details.

Ok, not that gruesome...but still too much information (TMI), I know. 

Once a month....well right now, every 6 weeks-ish

I get my monthly visitor. 

Or however, you like to say it or refer to it or allude to it. 

Not every time but most times there is one day where I am SO SICK.

Huge headache.

Crampy.

Bloated.

Achy.

Emotional.

Big time tired and Lethargic.

Muscles tight...hard to relax.

Did I mention, HUGE headache?

My sinuses feel closed.

My eyes feel like they might pop out.

Cannot focus.

Then I get depressed because I feel useless and helpless.

It's not always the same day...which is weird and annoying. 

I can't predicted it coming and plan for it, physically and emotionally.

Sometimes Dr. Pepper helps.

Sometimes it doesn't.

So I don't try it anymore....

well, sometimes I do if I'm out and about, I pick one up.

I hate when this day falls on a Sunday or a Monday. 

Sunday because I'm in the nursery and that is already exhausting. 

Monday because that is my MOST productive day in cleaning, tidying and organizing the house. 

I just want to go curl up in my bed. 

Yesterday it hit me.

Fifth day of my cycle. 

(I know TMI, sorry!)

I woke up with a headache which actually isn't all that uncommon. 

It progressively got worse as I gathered laundry. 

Tiredness crept in as I tidied our rooms and then started the laundry. 

That's when I lost focus. 

I looked for something to watch while I folded laundry. 

I ended up picking a movie,

Everybody is Fine.

I did not fold a lick of laundry.

I cried. 

That movie is SAD!

But, I thought it was really good too!

This did not help my situation.

Heightened my emotional state.

I will never do that again. 

I should have found a comedy! 

Sheesh.

I found the strength to peel and chop onion, potatoes and carrots.

I added them to the leftover roast we had for dinner a few nights ago. 

Stew.

It bubbled and brewed until Nathan got home. 

Marley, Isabelle and I watched,

some Christmas cartoons and 

Good Luck Charlie.

We sat and ate. 

I cried. 

Still very uncomfortable and emo.

Nathan gave me a very nice and very comforting blessing.

I went to bed.

Nathan cleaned up dinner, did the dishes and took care of everybody, got the girls ready for bed and did the bedtime routine without me.

Marley came in my room to say she wanted her pink blankie.

I told her that I thought it was in the washer. 

I got up to move it to the dryer and thought Nathan could put it on her when the dryer finished.

It was THANKFULLY in the dryer and dry already.

It was about 8:30 and Nathan was doing the dished. 

Baby was in bed.

I told Marley to go pick out three books. 

She said they already read books.

She went right back to bed.

So did I.

Even if I'm not back to 100% the day after, I feel SO much better!

My body creeks and pops.

Feels so good.

My sinuses start working again.

I can breath deep and easy.

I can focus.

For some reason I have an over abundance of gas the day after and it's a big relief too.

(Ha ha ha! I know TMI)

Burping and Tooting. 

Feels so good.

Anyway.

That's what happened to me yesterday. 

Feeling better today.

And I forgot to say....the stew was SO GOOD!

I do wonder what triggers this day of despair. 

Low iron?

Fatigue, anxiety, and my monthly cycle...the perfect storm?

Those are my theories.